I ain’t got none, yo. No weekend willpower. Because there are things around me like Homemade Apple Dumplings, smothered in butter cinnamon sauce and topped with a dollop of melting ice cream. Because I had a groupon for LA Artisan Creamery and got a scoop of homemade Cookie Dough and Peanut Butter Swirl ice cream. Because I work 40+ hours a week, go to school, blog, do laundry and scoop the litter box. It’s always been a problem of mine – even when my wedding was approaching, I found ways to convince myself that I DESERVED that Popcorn at the movies. Like somehow somebody owed it to me, and I should get it, for my good reward.
When I was getting my undergrad degree, I met with an awesome nutritionist named Ellen. After a few weeks meeting with her, she made an observation that stunned me. She said, “Alyssa – Your overeating is your way of acting out. You do everything right in your life – and you let yourself be a bad girl by eating poorly.” It was like a light bulb turned on over my head. She’s right! I get extreme pleasure from yummy food, like an alcoholic does when he swigs a big gulp of burning whiskey. I’m a glutton in the most pure and simple form. I like yummy things, and they are my drug. Now if only I could stay put in “Rehab”, and devote myself fully to Weight Watchers and the gym. Do you ever feel like you have an addiction? What is it?