Weekly Weigh In #2

Hello!!! Today when I got on the scale, I was pleasantly surprised to see I was down another 1.4 pounds, meaning in 2.5 weeks, I’ve lost 6.4 pounds. Whew!

MyFitnessPal – Free Calorie Counter

Here’s what I’ve been doing differently: 1) I am starting a fun new campaign with Diet to Go, (more on that later – including your chance to win free meals from them!) so I’ve been enjoying their delicious meals, like Italian stuffed potato shells and egg broccoli breakfast pie. Having the meals ready to go is SO NICE… nothing like not having to turn on your oven or stove when it’s 85 degrees in the house! (Thanks, Los Angeles.)

2) I’ve been suuuuuper OCD about measuring and counting my calories in My Fitness Pal. Despite what my body fat test said (that I could eat 1,900 calories a day and still lose weight!), I’m taking in about 1,480-1,500 calories a day. It’s not starvation, but I’m not gonna lie, it’s hard not to snack at night when the “I’m hungry!” voice starts whining. However, as I learned when chatting with my sister April and she suggested I eat carrots… I replied back without even thinking, “I don’t want carrots!” That revealed that I’m not REALLY hungry, as if you were starvin’, anything would do.

Wacky Snacks!

Wacky Snacks!

3) Water, water, water. So much water. No more soda, either. So water and unsweetened iced tea and the occasional Perrier.

4) Exercise! I have a few dedicated gym buddies and me and my gal pal Susannah are walking around the lake tonight after work. It’s great having social time because it “tricks” me into exercising if I can have fun and yap the whole way.

So – I’m happy with this week’s progress, I just hope it keeps up. I know typically when I really “try” again for a few weeks I see a nice loss and then everything stops. However, I’m awaiting blood test results and results from an exam to check for anything else funky going on, so if something other than my eating/exercise is stalling me, I’ll know soon!

I hope you have a wonderful day!

Wiping the slate clean – A whole new weekly weigh in!

I feel like there should be trumpet fanfare for this post – the penultimate post in which the wannabe weight loss blogger, but really, weight-maintenance and sometimes weight-gain blogger, reveals how much she’s lost, and how much she has to go. It’s Confession Time! Well, it’s probably nothing you don’t all know, and here it is, out in the open – I have not reached my goal weight. I am nowhere near my goal weight. Not a big surprise, right? Yeah, I figured.

Anyways, because I’m still weird about revealing the number (cuz it’s 2 much! heh!), from now on I’m going to use the number 79 pounds… which is the bare minimum amount of weight I need to lose to reach an acceptable BMI. When I first started blogging, I focused on losing fifty pounds, because I thought it was a nice, round number… and that it would somehow be less scary if I lost a big amount first, but not the “whole” amount. It’s kind of like dipping your toe into a cold pool instead of just jumping right in. I’ve basically dipped my toe in the pool of weight loss the past year, and then freaked out at the temperature, pulled my toe back and thought “I’ll just sit here in the shade and sip Diet Coke, mmk, thanks!”. But now, I’m jumping in again — and prepare to get wet.

As of last week, on Wednesday, May 22, I had 79 pounds to lose to get to a healthy range. I’ve been using MyFitnessPal diligently, and to my shock, today the scale was friendly and now I only have 74 pounds to lose. (ZOMG 74 pounds?! That’s like the weight of a small person. EEEEEEK.)

MyFitnessPal – Free Calorie Counter

Those five pounds are pretty much just water weight and my body going into shock at the STRICT  regimen of calorie counting on MyFitnessPal. However, I’ll take it. The only time I’ve ever lost five pounds in a week is when I decided to carry a fanny pack instead of my purse. Here are a couple things going on that will hopefully help keep me on track from now on:

1) As I said, I’m using MyFitnessPal. Add me as @lyssacurran. If I haven’t logged in in a few days, write me a comment, send a homing pigeon, or set off fireworks in front of my house. The accountability keeps me going.

2) On Monday, I’m having a follow up blood panel done to check some hormone levels and such with my doctor. Depending on what she thinks, I may be visiting a fancy-schmancy metabolic expert to see if there’s any underlying reason for my sluggish metabolism (PCOS? Thyroid? Tiny calorie-loving elves?).  I’ll keep ya posted!

3) Water, water, water. No eating processed crap. Very little sugar. More protein. Continuing no soda or artificial sweeteners. Trying not to eat past 7 pm. Blah, blah, blah. Oh… and exercise. I exercised tonight, at 10 pm! My husband went out for a run while I was lying on the bed all slug-like, which compelled me to get off my rump and MOVE to the Biggest Loser 30-Day-Burn DVD. Woot! Like my shirt?

 

Chillin' after some cardio.

Chillin’ after some cardio.

 

4) Because Diet to Go is awesome, they’re providing me a few weeks of meals in exchange for some blog posts and Twitter participation. I love the convenience of their yummy food, and am confident this will help me succeed. Also? Being able to microwave a freshly-made meal when I get home from a crazy 12 hour work day instead of chopping, dicing, boiling and roasting my dinner? The best.

5) FitBloggin’ is a short four weeks away! This year the event is in Portland, and it’d be great to go to a fitness conference and you know, actually feel fit. I’m hoping when I go I can describe my blog and boast that I’ve lost weight, rather than be like “Yeah, I yo-yo-ed the same weight for the past year.”

Ok, there it is. I feel like that was a bunch of confessions all at once.They weren’t really confessions, more like a “Let’s start at zero.”  This blog is no good to me if I use it as a place to only boast and brag and not be real. The blog is here for accountability and to connect with people like you, and while the freebies and perks are nice, the real reason I do it is I need that commitment of putting my challenge out to the whole world. It makes it harder to quit. It keeps me going. So yes – the bad news is I haven’t lost fifty pounds, 74 pounds, or even 24 pounds. But the good news is I’ve lost some pounds, and I’m still trying. As long as I keep trying, it might taken ten years to do this, but I’ll do it, by hook or by crook. Thank you for reading as always…. I really love seeing all of your comments and even if you don’t comment (Hi Lurkers!), I can see on my analytics that you’re popping in from all over to see what’s up in my little old world. THANK YOU. <3

Now – does anyone else have anything they’d like to confess or get out in the open? I’m here for ya.

(Here’s one more: My kitten has about 50,347,12 cat toys, and his favorite thing to play with right now is an empty Coors Light box and a tampon. (Don’t worry – it’s sealed and brand new and he got into our bathroom cabinet and made himself a little play date with all the supplies. Sigh. How’s THAT for a confession?!)

 

My Monthly Weigh In Update

Good Morning! So this morning (it’s currently Saturday), I woke up for the first time in my life, eager to get on the scale. I knew that my five workouts per week were helping, as I can now run a mile without dying, my jeans feel looser, I’m starting to get the “You’ve lost weight!” comments, and in general, I am feeling fitter, happier and more energetic. The scale would be good. It had to be.

I stepped on the scale when I rolled out of bed, before I ate anything or put anything on. The number shocked me. This has to be wrong, I thought, stepping back, rubbing my eyes, thinking I must still be in a daze. I stepped on again. The number was there again… glaring at me – the highest number I’ve ever seen in my life. This can’t be, I thought, anger growing inside me. Thankfully, in a moment of divine intervention, I remembered to take my measurements. I wrapped the pink tape around me in disbelief, not understanding how all this WORK could lead to gain. WEIGHT GAIN, that is. The measuring tape showed a different story. I lost an inch off my bust. An inch off my thighs. An inch off my forearm. An inch off my butt. An inch off my arm. THREE inches off my waist. A total of eight inches lost – surely, the proof of at least four hours of cardio per week in addition to strength training.

Thankfully, I had a therapy appointment. I haven’t been completely open about this on the blog because of the stigma that goes along with saying you’re seeing a therapist. I’m not crazy, and I’m fine – I just wanted to work on my stress management and anxiety, and I can tell you that lately I’m feeling better than ever. If you need help, get it. It’s not a big deal. We all need a little help sometimes. Anyways, we spent my session today talking about my WEIGHT. How all my life, it’s the one thing I feel like I cannot overcome. How I try so hard, and it feels like nothing changes. How this defeat makes me want to say f*ck it all, and eat 15 bags of movie theatre popcorn, to roll in dulce de leche, to be like “I’m fat and that’s the way I always will be.” But we talked about why a number means so much to me. How things like my horrendous allergies make me retain water. How I’m pre-menstrual. How I had a salty meal last night. How all of these things drastically affect a number – and how can I let a number RUIN MY DAY when I see results in so many other ways?

We talked about my food choices the past two weeks. I realized I haven’t had “perfection”. I have treated myself – because I had a major life accomplishment. I turned in 20,000 words of my own creation. My thesis, a project I’ve been working on for three years. I will graduate in May – a 28 year old with a Master’s degree. I am so PROUD of myself. I celebrated with a cheeseburger, and cupcakes. I sipped a frothy cold lambic on a hot summer day. I had a slice of pizza for lunch. My celebrations were all food, and that’s a behavior I can change, but we also talked about forgiveness. I need to forgive myself for not eating perfectly. I need to not beat myself up because of the scale. I need to be my friend. I am trying. I am working. I am going to make this happen.

I believe in myself. I will be journaling my food for the next few weeks, continuing to work out, and drinking more water. I will weigh in ONCE A WEEK, and that’s it. I will continue to take measurements. I will do this. I will do this. I can do this.

Whew – that was a heavy post. Bet you didn’t expect that, did you?! Tell me something that challenged you this weekend. You overcame it – I know you did – and if you haven’t, I know you can. We can do this! As always, thank you for reading my blog. It means a lot to me to know I’m not alone on this journey 🙂

 

 

Thailand 20 Tuesday – Week 5

Hi everybody! Sorry I missed a post yesterday – I got home from Chicago and have been catching up on work and such!

This week brings a disappointing weigh in – I’m up one pound. I think it’s pretty much impossible for me to reach 20 pounds lost in the next five weeks, but I’m going to keep going because SOMETHING is better than nothing. I’m a little frustrated with this week’s weigh in results because I consistently stayed in my calories on MyFitnessPal for 5 out of 7 days… and did a bunch more cardio this week. I think what set me off was that on Saturday and Sunday I overate. I didn’t go crazy, but I went over on calories by about 300 – 450 on both days (Chicago Pizza and White Castle Onion Rings sent me over the edge.) I’m finding when I’m on a weight loss kick, I need to be damn near perfect in terms of eating and exercise 98% of the time.I guess you can’t have “cheat” days when you’re trying to aggressively lose weight. 🙁

Some of the big important things happening this week are: 1) I should get results from my next Thyroid test. My doctor was concerned about how I was “close” to the hypo-thyroid range last time, so she’s checking it out since it has been six months since my last test. If it’s low, we’ll have a good indicator of why my body should be nicknamed “Sally Slow” when it comes to weight loss.

2)Despite this week’s gain, I’m not going to get too down. Here’s why:

Weight loss is about choices. In Chicago on Saturday, I really WANTED a cream-filled Dunkin Doughnut for breakfast… but I also want to lose weight. What did I order? An eggwhite flatbread and unsweetened iced tea. It was ok – not anything spectacular, but for a healthy and filling breakfast item, it was A-OK. Then on Sunday, as I dashed through the airport, I wanted to grab a quick bite to eat. Boy, Taco Bell would be good, I thought… and then once again that little internal voice kicked in and I walked away with a veggie sandwich on whole wheat.

It felt really good to see my family, and despite the sad reason we were there, it was a good way to remember cousin Josh’s life by celebrating him with people we loved. Here I am with my cousin Jenny and my two younger-generation cousins (Children of my cousin Michelle). Aren’t we cute? We’re definitely all related. In closing, I’ll leave you a picture of the thing that probably de-railed me – the Chicago pizza. I only had four small square pieces (they’re cut in squares, not wedges), but I bet the salt and grease blew up my tummy. Yay.

I thought four pieces was a reasonable serving, but maybe next time I need to have two. (They weren’t that big, I swear!!!) Ah, well.. the weight loss jig continues. And I guess if I lost weight as quickly as I wanted, I’d have nothing to blog about, right? 😉

Until next time – make good choices, keep on sweatin’, and come back next Tuesday, where I will report a loss even if I have to chop off my left arm to do it 🙂 PS: Last day to enter the Homemade Harvey and Whole Foods Giveaway!

 

 

Thailand 20 Tuesday – Week 3

Hello everybody! Hard to believe my third week of Thailand 20 Tuesday has come and gone. Lately I look at the calendar and think “WHERE DID 2012 GO?!” It’s been pretty wild how time keeps going faster and faster. I’m happy to report this week I lost 1.8 pounds! While it’s not quite my weekly goal of 2, it’s damn close and that’s just fine with me.

Last week I had a couple of things that helped me stay on track – like exercise! Here I am after an hour-long bootcamp class. I wanted to quit so many times, because this class was HARD – cardio, and then intense weight lifting in intervals. But each time I wanted to quit, I reminded myself that everything I’ve accomplished in my life has always been filled with those moments where you just want to stop. But you don’t stop – you keep going, and then eventually, that long, hard battle comes to an end and the victory is even sweeter.

I also ate pretty clean this week. Matt and I enjoyed delicious and rustic meals like grilled chicken breasts and roasted vegetables. I love meals like this because I can eat as many vegetables as I want!

I really focused on the protein this week. A lot of you know I’m not a big meat eater, and I probably eat vegetarian 80% of the week. I really tried to make sure I got protein somehow this week – like tonight, where in addition to three pieces of bacon (yummy), I made an egg white omelet packed with lots of fresh veggies. The egg whites help me get up there in the protein, and because it’s not meat, I don’t have that heavy feeling after. (PS: Breakfast for dinner? WINNER!)

This week I need to kick up the exercise even more, and stay focused on eating clean. There’s a few challenges in my way, like Halloween, but I’m determined to keep this trend moving downwards! Tomorrow, April has a great Halloween post about self-confidence, and then pretty soon we’ve got a chance for you to win a fancy new bra from our friends over at FullBeauty. I’ve also got a great review of my rad new scale from the kind people at EatSmart. Lots going on in Double Chin land! As always, thank you for reading – we wouldn’t be here without you! <3

Thailand 20 Tuesday – Week 2 Weigh In

Hi everybody! Well – it had to happen, and while I was hoping it would have happened LATER, my second Thailand 20 Tuesday is a loss of 0 pounds. I’m exactly, to the .2, the same weight I was last week. This isn’t ideal BUT it’s better than yesterday’s weigh in, which was UP 2.2 pounds! After I got over my hissyfit, I did some reflection and here’s what I came up with:

Sweaty!

1) I exercised, but not as much as week one. To keep consistently losing, I’ve noticed with the help of this blog I need to be doing at LEAST 30 minutes of cardio, four to five times a week plus other activity. Gotta do more! A workout I plan to do again this week is an hour of crazy high-impact Zumba (I sweat so much. It’s kind of gross, but hey, sweat is just your fat crying.) This is me after Sunday’s zumba class.

2) I did okay with food this week, but not as good as week one. I still tracked everything on MyFitnessPal, but I had a couple moments of weakness like when Matt’s parents were in town and the delicious basket of hot, fried tortilla chips was placed in front of me. Everything in my willpower just goes “POOF” and I’m like…

3) I should know better not to eat a salt bomb a couple days before weigh in. On Sunday, I made this yummy but CRAZY salty Dirty Rice Soup that I adapted from Everyday Food Mag. It called for 4 teaspoons of cajun seasoning and five cans of chicken broth. Even after I diluted with 4 cups of water, it was still sodium-centric. It was yummy though, but I can only imagine how much salt is swirling around my body, still! Is anyone interested in the recipe? If I post it up I’ll make it lighter on the sodium!

Dirty Rice Soup

So – a couple of key learnings this week. There is no room for small error… It’s gotta be, unfortunately, 99% on all the time. So – next week hopefully I can report some better news, but I won’t let this break me for week three. If anything, maybe next week will be a GIANT loss! I can be hopeful, right? How did your week go?