Starting Over: A Clean Slate

Today, I struggled with a feeling that often surfaces — I saw a friend who’s lost an amazing amount of weight, and I instantly thought, “Why haven’t I done that?” I’m THRILLED for my friend, but it reminded me once again that I absolutely cannot compare myself to other people – as everybody is walking a completely different path in completely different shoes. However, recognizing other people’s success is always a good reminder of, “How I can try harder?” Here are the things I need to do to try harder: be kinder to myself, stop beating myself up in my head about my weight, drink more water, stop avoiding the scale, and curb the overeating.

With that, I’ve made a decision to start over. Here’s what I’m going to do: I’m restarting My Fitness Pal, at my current weight. I’ve been yo-yoing the past couple months, and who knows what from – muscle building, eating junk food, water retention, hormones, stress…. who knows! I’d been avoiding updating the weigh-in graph on the app, and for what? Because the number would bother me? Who cares – life goes on. I will start over. I’m starting fresh, with a clean slate, and it doesn’t matter how much weight I lost six months ago, or what weight I’m at today – what counts is that as of today, a new page has been turned. I need to track EVERYTHING on MyFitnessPal. Your support has been huge – I totally love seeing all of you stopping by the blog, writing comments to me, “liking” my updates. It really means a lot, and helps motivate me to keep trying. It’s also been awesome having April join in on the blog, because it reminds me that I’m never, ever alone, and someone with the very same blood and DNA as me shares the exact same struggles!

In addition, I’m going to start adding weekly weigh-ins again. We all know the scale and I have a mostly hateful relationship. However, I recognize that I need it to keep me in check. My first weigh in update will be posted on Friday, and I’m going to try reaaaaally hard to keep it up, because I need some more transparency about that number. I can’t disregard the amazing progress I’ve made so far, in particular, I’m thrilled at my transformation from out-of-shape to somewhat-fit. I look forward to getting stronger, better and faster, and am loving the new support system I have with my workout buddies Susannah, Merrie and Sally.

When you’re trying to change bad habits, do you ever find yourself just wanting to start over? It doesn’t need to be cold turkey, but it needs to be a marked point for me, where I say, “Ok, I’m starting over. I’m going to forget the past and just live in the present and focus on making a better future.”

Now – help me with my first starting over challenge. Next Thursday, I’m going to Mexico for a five day vacation. How do I log my food when I won’t have internet access? Should I go old-school and use a pen and paper, or try and trust myself without logging? Should I enjoy my vacay and eat what I want, but in moderation?

Weekly Weigh In #1

Hey hey –

I’m starting weekly weigh ins again at #1 since I’m just beginning weight watchers…again. Today was a good day because I weighed in… and I am down

2.4 pounds!

Yay! I’m so glad I had good results, becuse now I’m motivated to keep it up and keep on trackin’. I want to be down another two next week – and I can do it if I stay strong, positive and focused.

Here’s one thing I love about Weight Watchers – you can still indulge. I just had some air-popped popcorn with real melted butter on it, and that was no biggie, because it fit into my daily points. I lost weight this week and was still able to eat Chicken Parmesan, drink two hard apple ciders, and eat candy. They’re not always healthy choices, but they’re realistic choices when at an event. I love that nothing is “off limits” and I can splurge as long as I’m honest about it and make sacrifices elsewhere, like having fruit instead of crackers.

My 2.4 pound loss was definitely the highlight of my day, because I feel inspired and encouraged. What was the highlight of your day today?

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Weight Watchers Recap, Week 1

Hey everybody! Tomorrow is my first weigh-in on Weight Watchers… and I’m here to report back on the week, so that tomorrow I can’t get a number and scratch my head in surprise. I have NO CLUE how it’s going to go. Here’s why: I tracked EVERYTHING I ate, from the handfuls of different marinated olives from Whole Foods to the five licks of orange cake batter to the Salami sandwich my boss brought me for lunch. (My boss just showed up today with a sandwich for my officemate and I – no rhyme or reason- isn’t that nice?! Matt also brought me home a beautiful mum plant last night after a rough day. I <3 thoughtful people.)

Salami, Mortadella and Capacolo Sandwich

So I tracked all week. That’s great, right? Weight Watchers is all about tracking. The reason why I don’t know this is going to go was that on Saturday I was at a memorial party for Matt’s grandfather, and I ate a 5-course Italian lunch – complete with chicken parmesan, antipasti, wine, bread and rigatoni. I tracked it all, but I’m worried that with restaurant tracking, you never know how accurate you’re really tracking. I earned several activity points throughout the week from exercise, but I used all of those and my weekly “flex” points (kind of like extra credit, for those not familiar with WW).

Orange Zest cake, made with greek yogurt!

Regardless of what the scale shows, I have a few “key learnings”, as we like to say in Marketing land.

1) Eating a small, low-point breakfast like greek yogurt and a piece of fruit is perfect to get me through to lunch and doesn’t destroy my points.

2) Eatings lots of fruit keeps me full and satisfied, and if it’s something super yummy like pineapple, it feels like a treat. (FRUIT is ZERO points!)

3) Keeping check on my emotions is worth more than any diet pill could ever be. I had a stressful day yesterday, and my first impulse was to eat. And not eat daintily – I wanted to stuff my piehole full of carbs and go all Cookie Monster. But I took a few deep breaths, drank some water, and moved on. Moved on to life without Ben and Jerry. And I was fine, and now I feel good about moving past that urge.

So – even if tomorrow isn’t very impressive, or worse, slightly disappointing, it was a thoughtful, conscientious week for me in terms of eating, tracking and Weight Watchers. This week is all about focusing on the positive – an activity that I like to do on a daily basis!

How was your week in terms of eating healthy?

Weekly Weigh In #…I forgot

Hello Bloggies! Happy Friday to you – It’s a super special Friday to me because I work one day next week and then I’m off to Chicago and Minnesota to visit family and see my cousin get married! Exciting! I’ve been lacking on the weekly weigh-in posts – sorry – but believe me, I have been checking in with the scale every Saturday.

Happily this week I’m down another .8 of a pound… making my grand total 5.8 pounds since starting the weight tracking on this blog.

 

I should probably be more angry that I haven’t lost more, but when I consider my hectic life the past few months, I’m grateful I’m DOWN and not up! 5.8 pounds is a nice chunk of chunky, and I can feel it in my jeans. To be completely honest too, the last time I tracked was… *hangs head in shame* weeks ago. So with all that said, continuing to lose is a small victory for me and I’ve accepted that this particular journey will be long, but that small tweaks ultimately lead to big change over time.

I’ll be challenged many, many times on my upcoming vacation – with Wisconsin’s deep fried cheese curds, Chicago’s Italian Beef, Deep Dish Pizza and wedding cake – but I know that a few slip-ups on a vacation hardly make a downward spiral, or even more important, I don’t need to LET it turn into a downward spiral.

Things will probably be quiet around here next week – I’ll try to check in at least once, but if I don’t, please know that I’m enjoying a few days off work and school and spending time with my awesome family. I hope you have a great week!

Weekly Weigh In #5

Yesterday I weighed in for the fifth time since beginning Weight Watchers Online. Here’s a few very important things to note about this previous week: I hadn’t tracked a thing since the following week. There’s no excuse for WHY I didn’t do it, but work was crazy busy, I was not in that tracking mindset and I just didn’t do it. However, on the plus side, I worked out like a beast this week – taking three hardcore cardio classes (boxing, impact kickboxing and bootcamp) in addition to getting lots of other activity doing household things like weeding, washing the car, etc.


That’s why this week I’m surprised – and not surprised at the same time – that I lost .6 of a pound. It’s not a massive loss, but it’s a loss. It’s a shift in the right direction, and this week provided some key learnings for me. All week I was MINDFUL of what I was eating. Did I indulge? You bet. In homemade banana muffins, a chicken gyro at King’s, and beef Teriyaki when out with my friends for lunch. I indulged, but I was sensible about it, and instead of stuffing my face, I stopped when I was full, and balanced everything with cardio and activity. I also SERIOUSLY upped my water intake this week, after having a chat with my nutritionist friend.

Glamazon Woman on her Bitty Beach Cruiser

I’m at 3.2 pounds lost in five weeks. That’s not a ton, but it’s something. It’s better than staying the same. I had a very inspiring experience this weekend by meeting two new friends who can help me on this long, tiring road to a healthy weight. (Watch for that post on Tuesday!) This is a big goal for next week, but I’d love to lose at least 1.5 pounds at my next weigh in. I’m going to do it by drinking tons of water, continuing the aggressive cardio, and watching what I eat. And YES, I will be tracking. In fact, I’m going to track now (piece of toast, 1 piece of bacon, 2 egg whites. Breakfast!).

Have a wonderful Monday – and remember – it’s the start of a new week, and it’s never too late to make positive changes. 🙂

Weekly Weigh in #3

This week was much better than last, because I lost 1.6 pounds! Wooooohoooo! 😀 I was feeling really discouraged over last week’s lackluster loss (.2 – remember? pssssh), but yesterday made me feel better about things. (And I’ll be honest, if not a tiny bit disappointed as I reminisced over the old school fiber-riffic Weight Watchers plan that could help you shed 3-4 pounds a week at first)


I still had some indulgences this week that made me grateful for a nice loss – I had french fries one night, Thai food for lunch one day, and a slice of birthday cake. The fact that those types of food CAN fit into a weight loss plan make me feel good. (Sorry – I don’t buy the crock of crap about “it’s not a diet, it’s a lifestyle”. It will be a lifestyle for me when I’m not wanting to steal candy out of the hands of children. Most people don’t track everything they eat for the sake of it being a “life style”.)

My total weight loss after three weeks is 3.8 pounds. This is a good, steady loss and hopefully one that will not be coming back. This week I vow to keep tracking, make good choices about late night snacking, and keep going to the gym. This weekend will be a bit of a challenge as it’s my one year wedding anniversary, and to me, celebration always entails delicious food. I’ll have to try and enjoy the deliciousness without stuffing my face. It’d be awesome if I could hit five pounds down next week…. Let’s see what I can do! Have a great week!